ok, for real this time...maybe

this is gonna be super quick but, i am going to try to make a real effort to blog more, i promise. but don't count on much, lol. soooo last you heard from me, did i tell you i had baby number 4? no, i don't think so. so yeah, a boy. he is so awesome and my 2 year old girl is so good with him. still struggling with depression and some opie use but nothing like what i used to get up to. i have been trying to recoonect with all my old online friends after not having internet for a year. and catch up on all the blogs i used to read. was very happy to see anna, melody, shane, gled and kaia especially still around and posting. so i will try n catch up more later. don't have alot of time atm.
~Carrion

I guess I will bring this shit back. What's new here? I have gone from phone whore to cam whore and dominatrix. Also no more coke in the veins, now pills up the nasal cavity. And I now have spawn number 3, my beautiful baby girl. I can't remember how long it has been since I last wrote and am way to lazy to look. So not sure if I was still writing when I got pregnant with number 3. Anyhoo, that's it for now, this lazy bitch does not feel like truly updating. Hopefully I will be back with more but who knows really.

Someone cares!

LOL, since someone out there cares about what has been happening I will tell ya.

I got released from house arrest on Oct 24th. I have regular probation for one more year and I will go for another early term in about March or so. But it feels good to be out of the house.

The man and I are making it official on December 23rd. Yes, we finally decided to get married. It is more for the kids and tax purposes. Not meaning we don't love each other and this is it for us. But if we did not have kids, we would not feel the need to pay the state for a piece of paper that says it. It's just another way for the gov to make some money off people.

The pregnancy is going well, I am very excited now and have become quite impatient. I am barely showing (18 weeks) and I am ready to be big. I can feel her move everyday now. They were not real sure it is a "she" at the ultrasound, the baby was not in the prime position. But i feel like it is a girl. I will be looking into seeing a midwife at a birthing center. Right now I am still at the health dept. until the medicaid kicks in. They are taking their time.

Financially right now we are screwed. as many others are. Thanks Bush! you stupid fucker. I am soooooooooo happy Obama made it in. I have the feeling he will be one of our greatest presidents. Anything is better than another fucking republican. So we are trying to get assistance but it is taking longer than usual. The power may be shut off. But I do have some places to go for help. We have been low on food also. I got the names of some food pantries to go to. So that sucks but I know it is temporary. I have been here before, I have been in worse situations, just never with the kids. Luckily we are getting toys for tots to get presents for our kids and my in laws always load them down. At least we have our house still and that is not in danger and we have family that would help if it comes down to it, which is more than some people have. I am thankful for that.

So that's it. I hope that you are all well and happy. Except for you ignorant fucks, I hope you die a horrible death after suffering and your family morns your loss for the rest of their days. Mwhahahaha