A long answer to Michelles comment

I was going to answer your coment in the comment section but since it was soo long I decided to make it a post. So to answer your comment-

It's funny I was just thinking earlier how I would change the comment moderation. So I did, let the BS fly, lol.
My kids are with me, thats one thing I have been lucky with through all my bull shit,I have never lost them. I always made sure my babies were taken care of, no matter what I was doing. We did use with them in the house when we were binging on coke right before I got put on house arrest. And I do regret that. I know my 13 year old could tell something was up, even tough we would wait til they went to bed, we were still high in the morning. Now we only get high when they go to granmas house. Or if we do get high after they are asleep, it's ust a couple of shots then we come down and go to bed so we can get up in the morning and take care of them. I do take pills but that's way different then running around high from coke shots. They are 13 and 8 years old, two boys. I proably won't talk about them much on here cause I don't like making info about them available on the net, too many real freaks out there.
I have four tats and I am planning on getting both my arms half sleeved and a large back piece. I have a piece on my arm, it is two women intertwined in an embrace, looks kind of tribal. I got it when I was in a two year relationship with my ex girlfriend. I have a moon with a female face on my left shoulder. I have a skull on my right upper arm and I have the number thirteen done in purple flowers and vines under my belly button. You cannot even tell it's a thirteen unless I point it out. My ex girl has it too. 13 is my lucky number and was my grandmothers lucky number, she basically raised me most of the time. My mom has been an addict/dealer my whole life. The thirteen is not some hooky goth thing, it really just is my lucky number and the tattoo was for my nana too. I am an old school goth chick though. I love body mods too, my ears are 9/16" but next week I am stetching to 5/8", basically right now I can get my ring finger in them. I have my septum pierced and just stretched it to 8 gauge. I have my labret done but haven't worn it for awhile, it was causing my gums to recede. I also got rid of my belly button piercing, it always bothered me. And lastly I have the hood of my clit done, 12 gauge. I have had all my piercing except my ears for over ten years now, so I am not one of these dumb kids who just jumped on the body mod bandwagon and who will be taking their piercings out in a few years, lol. I also have dreads, this is my second set. I had long dreads half way down my back but I cut them off like a dumbass for a job and because I had court and the first time in front of the judge he hated my dreads. So I just started my new set of purdy black dreads 3 months ago and they are here to saty. I can't wait til I go for early release so I can dye some of them purple again.
House arrest sucks real bad. Although to me 60-90 days would be a cakewalk. I have been on for 14 months. I just got a new officer who won't let me do ANYTHING. Since I work at homw, phone whoring, I only get to go out for 2 hours a week to go check in with her. At least my other officer would let me go shopping,take the kids to school and go to school fuctions. But you won't be able to smoke weed. I haven't somked in 14 months.
I had reglaur probation. 5 years worth. On my first piss test I came up dirty for pot. They are supposed to give you a 90 day grace period to get totally clean but as I said the judge hated me because of how I looked so they put me on two years drug offender probation. I almost finished. the last month, 5 days before I went to my appointment, i decided (like a TOTAL dumass) to shoot 5 grams of powder with my bf and think I would be clean. So I violated. I absconded for 6 months before that caught me, we were partying way too hard during that time. It was a good thing I got caught actually, otherwise I would be dead with all the shit we were doing.
So thats that. feel free to email me anytime at undercoverkittie@hellokitty .com I am so glad that I found yours and Melody Lee's blogs. I really like reading them and feel a kinship with both of you. I hope we can be net friends.

**sidenote: I mentioned I had an ex girlfriend. I hate labels. I do not consider myself bi sexual. If one must label me I would be pan sexual (google it). I just don't look at someone for their sex, gender or color. I fall for someone for WHO they are not WHAT they are.